#i have some irl stuff going on that drains my energy and mental stability (that wasn't strong to begin with)

[a-master-procrastinator]

OC Tag Game

Tagged by @raven-of-domain-kwaad, thank you! I'll be keeping it within SWTOR characters since I just focus on them here.

No pressure tag (if you feel like it): @vespertine-legacy, @astrifer-bound, @mmigrainee, @chaoticspacefam, @spitzobsessed

Favorite OC - Jett

Not surprising. As much as I love my other characters (Auletta don't kill me), Jett just gotta be my favorite. Bounty hunter storyline being one of my favorites definitely affects this, but there is much more to this. She is this 'tough on the outside, softie on the inside' type of character that I just adore, I love her personal arcs about trauma, meaningful connections and leadership. And of course strong badass Mando women are just cool and get an instant liking from me :) I can go on for hours on this, but let's move on.

More under the cut.

Newest OC - Beirya and Zin

I had more ideas for new characters after I made Rya and Zin, but they are not yet actual characters that I plan to develop. So these two are my newest at the moment.

Oldest OC - Auletta

Technically, the first character I ever rolled in SWTOR was smuggler, but I didn't keep her in any way, so it's Auletta. Although she looked slightly different and was assassin instead of sorcerer in the game (which doesn't fit her background), the core of her character remained the same.

Meanest OC - Jaria

It's a tough spot between some of my characters, but when others can be polite or maybe it's not their nature to be rude (they just do it for others reasons), Jaria is unapologetically mean to people almost all the time (only shutting up if it saves her skin or gives an advantage).

Softest OC - Shailla and Lorri

(there are actually two more but I wanted to keep it short)

They are just so kind and gentle, striving to do more good in this imperfect galaxy. I mean, there is a reason why Lorri is often considered the heart of her little found family.

Most aloof/standoffish OC - Xaele and Jaria

Xaele in general is pretty distant from the world and even her own actions, which fit well for agent's life. And Jaria is, honestly, pretty mistrusting, and after being separated from her sister, probably the only person she gave a Hutt about, Jaria couldn't form meaningful connections with other people, so she's a loner. Plus she's mostly interested in self-gain and money, and she doesn't care how she gets it.

Dumbest (affectionate) OC - Vintu

Well, there may be others, but no one radiates chaotic dumbass energy like Vintu (yeah, not even smugglers, though they are close). Just look at his dumb face.

Smartest OC - Auletta and Elixess

I would betray Auletta by not including her here. She is a quick learner, a schemer, always hungry for knowledge and information. She's very good at using all available knowledge and information to get the best out of her situation, whatever it might be (back in slavery, in Sith Academy, Dark Council, you name it). The only period when Auletta made kinda dumb decisions was around chapters 1 and 2 of Inquisitor storyline, mostly bc she was drunk on power and freedom, testing how far she can go. But when she failed to kill Thanaton for the second time, Auletta adapted and got the best out of it.

Elixess is similar in many ways, except she doesn't have the same malicious intent as Auletta and maybe not as nerdy. She is a quick thinker, which helps her talk her way out of most trouble and see possibilities for profit. Also, I just thought having a smuggler as one of the smartest characters is funny.

(actually, there are more characters who are on the same level, but I wanted to mention these two)

Horniest OC - Vintu and Jaria

Jaria just likes to flirt around and have one-night stands almost every time she visits a new place (Mako got tired of it real quick). Shame that bounty hunters don't have a lot of flirt options with NPCs other than companions. And Vintu... well, for my own sanity we have an agreement - he doesn't tell much about his private life, and I don't get to know much about it. Let's just say that when he's with Jaesa they are very active, and even after he's done with her, Vintu still hits on a lot of people.

OC you'd bang - none

I'm way too asexual for that.

OC you'd be best friends with - Raen and Alaine

Both of them are great friend material. Raen shares some of my interests (that weren't a bit of self-insert to begin with, no no), so she can tolerate a bit of infodumping about special interests from me. She's generally fun to be around, except for maybe when she's being chased by law enforcement or when she's sleeping. Plus we might have 'introvert adopted by an extrovert' dynamiс in a good way.

Alaine is someone I could trust to discuss a lot of complicated topics without being judged harshly. And she's a good person and a reliable friend in general, so great to have her as a friend. Alaine is more of "calls me out on my shit" friend, and Raen is more of "tags along with my shit" friend, and I definitely need both these types of friends.

[monstersofsilence]

man

I had done shit this whole year on this site, huh?

.w.

let me tell ya'll something

work fucking sucks

but I have to make a living somehow even if it means I have to be miserable for 10-11 hrs, getting sick of it by the halfway mark of each day, then coming home feeling drained of energy and motivation to do anything

I can admit that I fucking hate the job I'm working in. I have never liked factory work ever since I done some from the staffing agency I was with. those made me hate them now. like I am capable of doing them. there's one good quality/trait I have is that I am a fast learner if they visually teach me what I'm gonna do. I will do that with ease even if there's a language barrier

but just

some decisions on certain things just bother the hell out of me and then it's just

stating in ONE FUCKING SPOT for the ENTITE DAY is what makes it miserable

even worse that around June or July that I somehow fucked up my arms. I don't know how. pulled a muscle or something but they have been hurting since then whenever I extend my arm straight and move it a certain way ever since and it's already the new year

this turned to me venting but honestly, I need to just let this out. there are times I want to just scream. I want to leave the plant because I feel like I'm going to lose it. I don't hate the people I am working alongside with (except for... maybe 1 or 2. though one of them is actually an asshole and is just annoying). everyone are good people

I just hate WORKING THERE. I would have quit long ago but I have to make some money somehow and to help out my family. but once I make it through a full year this coming May, I am gonna be job searching again. the plant is good money. like really good but there is no way I am gonna stay there for the rest of my life and have a decline in my mental stability

I'd rather take getting yelled by a Karen than stay more than another year at the place I work at

I'll stop ranting now. this whole section is gonna be under readmore because I did not realize I was going to go on a rant about irl stuff

anyway, I am alive, happy belated Christmas, and happy belated New Year

I am planning in getting a tablet specifically for art so

I might make a comeback for 2025??? maybe??? if I am still perfectly sane by then :')